‎"Rose bushes are beautiful they entice you to get close to them- breathe them in...but don't dare ask them for a hug! "- stacie hadley

‎...it really frustrates me to no end when people keep grasped tightly in their fist every little wrong I have made in my life- rather than every right I have made- for the rights surely outweigh my wrongs. I am but human, I have made mistakes and I will continue to make more- but I have learned from many and strive to be the best I can be...but those people who will not let go of my wrongs are holding down our relationships like an anchor dragging the bottom of the sea- we all need air- to survive. LET GO already or we both will drown. - Stacie Hadley-Photography

‎"I'm thinking that sometimes in life...in order to go forwards...you must go backwards.Sometimes we go through life so quickly we leave small details behind that may in fact not be details at all.In fact they may bring life... FULL circle."- stacie hadley




 ( sometimes back tracking is a positive experience!...just sayin'...fix it before you forget it!) ** If you click on the Photograph I took it will enlarge ...and you can then see the detail.- stacie <3

nothing lasts forever... I will no longer blog here

" Sovereign reality stands in a spot where my dreams once slept."- Stacie Hadley

"YOU do not know ME...fa so la te do" -stacie hadley©

"In order to make the dollars, you need to be the change." Stacie Hadley ©

" If you don't lose yourself in something, then how can you be found?" -Stacie Hadley©

"4.0 pivotal changes" made a happy DIVOT...

...and all in less than 30 days. <><

Ask and ye shall receive...one just must truly "believe".

Since writing "4.0 pivotal changes"... and taking my very own words and applying them to my life...there have been just that...a GRAND abundance of changes. More than I could have possibly fathomed. I still feel that perhaps many more changes are going to be on the horizon and I hope they are all on an upward climb. My life feels surreal. I haven't been this happy since early 2008.

I cried out, and he heard me. He sent me more than I could have hoped for. I have new found friends all shapes and sizes from here and abroad...like minded people and tangible souls. I have my head in the clouds and my feet on the ground, a skip in my step and an extra beat in my fluttering heart. I feel I am being nourished from various avenues and it feels marvelous, splendorous...spectacular!

My life is more blessed today than it has been in some time and for that I am eternally grateful. For that I have appreciation beyond words. I will embrace each day with a smile and breathe in all that is new. Fresh Air is a good thing we all need it to survive. I have surpassed surviving and now I am really starting to live. <>< <>< <><

Deciphering..."Magnetism"

heavy stuff!!!

                                                                          Wowzers.

It does exist and more potent than I ever could have expected. It lead me to do some research and I found a powerful article that I wanted to share. As for now, I will re-read with you and focus on this insatiable yet powerful urge of connection I have recently been introduced to. Maybe this is what they meant by swept off your feet. I cannot explain much in life...but certain events happen for various reasons and now I have to reflect and try to hear what God and the universe are whispering to me.

http://www.buzzle.com/editorials/3-17-2004-51795.asp

Tornadoes vs Animals.

This just in,... Duplin County NC has just reported that a hog farm has been hit by a tornado. Only in Eastern NC can you see pigs fly and "hail" freeze at the same time. If that wasn't enough visual stimulation... to make matters worse another tornado has done LARGE "scale" damage on a fish farm.

I don't mean to make light of the horrible tornadoes that have come through our area causing such devastation in recent weeks and just today in eastern NC. Like my late father I tend to have a quick wit and can always lighten any given situation with comical thoughts. Humor and laughter is so important in life...it's soup for the soul. In all that is bad, good can come from it- or at least one can try to get a comedic squeal out of those with slightly warped minds. That's nothing to flop about folks!

;)

Stacie Hadley (todays weather comic relief) when she reigns she pours ;)

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4.0 pivotal changes

Today my 4 year old taught me something. Sometimes we look around and the world is scary. In life we hold on tightly to things that bring us comfort... but only can we live and grow and become what God intended when we "let go" of our ropes. We explore new ways to live and try new things. It's so much easier and less scary "clinging"' to what we know will always support us and keep us safe but through the eyes of a 4 year old that's not what God intended we do. He wants us to challenge ourselves and to not take the easiest avenue. Sometimes we do it to ourselves, but sometimes we let others keep us cushioned. In the end "we" all as "individuals" have choices to make...so like my 4 year old I too have been braving the world from a new vantage point for the past few weeks. The perspective certainly changes when one learns to just let go.

I must admit I haven't quite been myself since updating to the 4.0 version of myself March 29th. I hit a pivotal movement head on and dead fast in one flail swoop. A lot of my life needed to be revamped. Things have not been working for a long time in many areas of my life and I had told others in my life that current relationships/friendships just were no longer working for me. I need and deserve more tangibility in my life and had been settling for sub par relationships in all aspects of my life. It just hasn't been cutting it and has left me unfulfilled and unsatisfied and far more lonely and isolated for months on end. Its hurt my self esteem and cutting words have seeped in and left scars. I'm not alone in my plight...I have 4 boys that are on this journey with me...we all need updates in our life. It's as if the clock striking midnight on that bittersweet day and words that were exchanged just before the calluses were revealed at that final hour oozed to the surface and  started to hurt from the wear and tear. I wept until dawn. I have never cried so hard and long in my life. It was cleansing. Enough was enough. Maybe other people do not wish to have change in their life- but I do mine. Change is needed for growth...and stepping outside our boxes and comfort zones are sometimes the only way we can grow. Giving up our safety nets may be THE ONLY way we can fly solo.

I cling to things. I don't like change or giving up... but I have felt as if I have had my hands on a rope that someone has been stepping on my fingers and prying them loose one finger at a time in slow motion for months maybe even years. My hands hurt from the hold. Sometimes in order for others to change they have to see you changing, or you have to change things so they can see reality. The saying you don't know what you have until it's gone...is so true, not just for me but for you too. Sometimes the new light reveals layers you never wanted to see. I see clearly now as I breathe deeply and sigh. It's a relief. I at 40 know what I want "in" my life and "for" my life- and "for" my children. I once thought I had that but I was wrong. Days grow shorter as I grow older and my days are limited. I want to open my life to new possibilities, and have people in it that are on the same page as I am or at least share the same vision or destination in life. That place may never be attainable but it's the getting there that makes life "living"... I haven't been living, I have been waiting. I'm too old and tired to wait any more. I don't want to watch life pass me by I want to live life. I want to hike and laugh and love and be loved. I want so many voids to be filled.

I want a lot of things...and in order to achieve them I have to stop waiting and start living....with or without what I thought I needed for my journey. Nothings perfect, timing isn't, places, jobs, ages, ...if we do not cease moments even if we aren't sure footed those moments will pass and they will be gone forever. I don't want to miss out on my life anymore- I want to make my life happen. I'm the only one that can do that- so..."pivot, spin...let my life begin."-stacie hadley.  Spring is about renewal... and this spring will certainly be one for me to remember. This year is the year of Stacie. This year I will participate and I will bloom and I will be as beautiful as I can be this year for next year a little of me ages, and dies... and becomes a little less beautiful than the year before on the outside. But my inside will forever be growing, and aspiring to be all that God intended I become. I have such great boys and they deserve more than just me in their life. They have no papa and their mamama hasn't time for us...it's up to me to place people in their life to love them and right now they just are not getting what they deserve and neither am I. So until the 4.1 version of Stacie updates- the 4.0 version will work hard to make the next version that much better.

It's not just people in life it's experiences and sharing life with others. LEt's face it at the end of a day if we have nobody to call or nobody to turn to in the same room life just isn't as exciting. We all need people- to share life with. Life is often lonely and unfulfilling but it doesn't have to be. I want things for myself and for those I care about- but there comes a time when it's every man for themselves. I can guide and steer and wish and hope and dream and desire all day long and talk about God and what's morally right until I'm blue in the face but it still doesn't mean people will comprehend the rights and wrongs. So many need to place burden or blame on their lack of fame, but what it boils down to is their own actions, reactions or lack there of and they alone are in charge of others perceptions.

John Lennon once said, so precisely ," Life is what HAPPENS when you are 'busy' making OTHER plans". Take heed. The time has come for me to "live" life. I pray that God will guide me and keep me on my path because I'm tired of looking behind me and tired of frowning down and just want to look up and straight ahead because that's where my future lives and I want to participate in it. My calluses from holding on too tightly to those ropes will heal. Nothing is certain or exact in life...except holding your one comforting position of safety and even that will leave your hands scarred over time. It's time for me to let go, live and let live...my hope is that you too can set yourself free and join me. Life is for living, let go.

... Savor the Moments

"There's no better feeling in life than when someone extends their hand out for you to hold theirs. It's the simple pleasures in life that fill our days with such joy. Moments turn into minutes, minutes turn into hours, hours turn into days, days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, months turn into years and so time does pass so very quickly. Make all those little moments count because before you know it we may run out of them."- Stacie Hadley

Once upon a time a wise fool sayeth, " I once was smart until I was reborn jesterday; now I am just dumb founded." - stacie hadley ©